Pay Me

i got my first pay the other day, only to find out a month later it was sent! My dad didnt realise it had come til through the constant naggings. i got 370$, -100 to vn, -100 to my dad's friend who just found out he had cancer, initially -100 to my parents but my dad is thoughtful enough to let me keep it so its only -50 for mum = 120 left. well i did say to myself that i'd gve 50 to each of my sisters, but they can wait haha i buy them things when i go out without any intentions on the day anyway.

im not quite sure what i should do with the money, i still have to deduct an amount for the raffle ticket im buying to help the red cross. the poor victims, it was good that my school reacted immediately and had everyone put in money, which is what they need most. Money can be good and it can be bad. Everything is reliant on money, if you don't have enough you jsut have to wait.. but patience does have a limit! It brings out the worst in everyone, the most scariest sin, greed. (a stray cat is outside my window and just passed me, a a yellow and black coloured bird too). I'll most likely have 100 at the end of the day, though i will feel good because i know the money will not be spent on non-materalistic things. Imagine if i didnt have this extra cash, im not quite sure how to react :( Pity just doesnt cut it, its all in the action!

only a hundred, what should i spend it on. i think i deserve to spend this amount on myself, after all those hours labouring, even though its not as much as what my parents have been trhough and they dont even spend that much in a day. Some days i jsut think, i dont deserve it, ill just gvive it all to them. But doesn't hurt to be a bit selfish once in awhile now does it? :)

So many things i want, i still want a blazer, wedges, blush, more dresses and nice tops and i dont mind a pair of jeans either and some nice flats.