Gees i feel so useless, im stupid. i dont know how to do hard stuff. gees im sorry im not smart and i dream big. i cant live up to my expectattions or up to your lowly standards of me.i cant even do that much and i spend so much of your money. im sorry. i find those who suicide quite brave, to let go off everything in a split second. there are happy days and there are bad days, i jsut want to look back and laugh at all this. but right now, its jsut so frustrating!! I cant do what i am expected so i blame others, i blame my sisters, i blame my enviroment, i blame you, i blame everyone to take off the guilt as to why i did so badly. i see everyone around me suceeding, i can imagine my life in their shoes, but getting there looks really bleak at the moment.

Everyone's potential, i belive can be seen in primary school. I see my friends potential and wow, i wish i was like them. Everyone who was in the smart group in primary are all doing well now. i was always JUST there, not there yet but ABOUT to. working hard is jsut not me, ive never had to do anything hard in my life, being spoilt since young, was that my decision? Obviously not, being put in that enviroment then being removed .. how do i just make myself feel natrual to this? It's been 6 years, the worst years in my life. But it does come second to being/staying over someones house every week and being molested. who says my life is all that fantastic? And i get everything i want? Uhha. I question in my mind, when you think of your childhood memories, what were they? eating ice cream at the parlour and such with your parents in the image? Yeah mine were there, dropping me off early in the morning to my family friend's house, disturbing their house every morning. Must have been a pain to have me. I admit i stole cause i liked it, ithaving parents then was like having none at all. Work so hard, have me, work even harder. whats the point? Death seems like a simple solution. But with my mum's superstitions, theres the afterlife and such. And i will go to hell to be punished for all my wrong doings. Yelling at my parents would be the biggest one, lying, stealing, persuading and much more. I've done pretty much everything thats bad. I havent done smoking or drugs, but could come next? Who knows.
What i want to know are the kids who drink at an early age, i want to see how their lives turn out. Girls with no pride, how will they end up? Do i just ignore and try to live my own life? Gosh this sounds so bloody depressing. Should get therapy. I jsut want someone to give me an answer. What was the point of me being born into thisworld? I bring so much grief to whom loves me. was i like some live toy that was designed to punish my parents for their wrong doings in the past? Man wha is this life coming to? there is so much pressure in vce. and then uni. I know what i want, i want to travel. I dont want to be away from mys siters too long, but if i had the opportunity to study overseas for a year, id take it up. If only it was given to me now, id take it in a heartbeat. I just want to get away from everyone, everything here. I need another break? Some people work all their lives and some have not even been overseas and ive just came back from the u.s and soon to thai. So is it selfish of me to think of another holiday? Am i just a lazy girl ? Im really tired. If there was a pill that would make me sleep forever, id buy that in a heart beat too. but then id bring so much heartache to those around me, which then would make me feel guilty. my family, friends, gees. this really sucks. nothing is going the way i hoped it would be. the fortune teller said i was going to have a hard life, yipee. and imstupid. wahh didnt need to be told that, it shows from my failing reports. just when i was motivated to do even better, my results for accounting was brought up, this just made me feel all depressed once again. what can i do my cry to myself. i dont want to bring up the past. i dont want to live in the past. i just want to live now, but why do people around me keep bringing up everything i dont want to hear? Its so frutsraing. and theres nothing i can do but smile. or try laugh it off or cringe my face.

i think i've had enough and i cant wait for change. maybe i should just change things and not wait for it. the only time that is quiet, is when everyone is asleep.

A day after Christmas

A day before Christmas Eve I somehow got persuaded into going to the Gym! Its so bizarre, my first time sweating my ass off in the gym haha grosssssssssssss My friend became my personal trainer for the day, she made me go on this thing that goes up and down like you're climbing up a hill, then we did some weights (1kg oneS) i had to do squats and all that shbang. There was this asian lady that seemed so motivated, prolly thinking i betttter make use of my 20$ here ! haha The gym was pretty pricey and the fact that peeps there seem to just care about the money and not for our well-being. Asssses.
We can back to my place, but on the way we bought some ice cream! My friend got a tub of ferrero +nutella whilst i got a tub of mango passion sorbet. yumms. The bus ride was pretty quick cause we were busily chit chatting and i missed my stop, I forgot to press the bell and yelled out at the bus driver to stop. we had a lil petty argumnt as i got off. that mofo grr i hate public transport!
The day ended off with eating some crackers with olives and my fav strawberry jam from mornington peninsula. Then the desserts :) It was a funfilled tiring day, I now feel motivated to get my ass and legs toned up!
Then at nighttime, I started typing up my xmas messages via fb to my loved ones. Is it necessary to wish them a merry christmas again when you've already written a card? Hrm..

On Christmas Eve I met up with my Japanese friend and my (im not sure what to call him but i consider him as one of my besties) friend at Koko Black as my Jap friend has never been. I ordered from the summer special menu - rasberry ice chocolate and a summer spoil which included the choccies, ras sorbet, shortcake, cake. the rasberry puree in my ice chocolate was not great... tasted rather ergh. buti pulled through with a happy face :)
We chatted for ages there, it was so good catching up with her and going out with my friend too. Honestly, I never thought I'd be able to see her again! So i was extremely happy, shes the sweetest and nicest and cooolest. I hope she can be a flight attendant, then she could be able to travel even more. Shes practically been everywhere in Asia, shes so lucky! It was unfortunate she had to leave early for a Xmas dinner with her boyfriend's family, so we walked and waited with her at the bus stop.
When she left, me and my friend went shopping at MC. He didnt get anything, but he was so good at picking out clothes and stuff! I think he has better taste than Me. I so would shop with him, i love his honesty. I also bought some tea from T2. Starwberry and cream + Turkish Apple (L) It tasted so good at the stores, so i had to buy it. But when i got home to make it, it tasted.. rather weird ~

On Christmas, my dad fell ill, so i had to substitute at a Wedding. So my mum, me and sisters drove to the wedding. The road there was tough, in terms of the turns and the endless roads. We thought we wouldnt be able to make it, the roads were spindling, i htink we were driving up a mountain or something. Was so scaryy, i was secretly praying in my head ahah Luckily we had a Gps or else, with me being so bad at maps, i think i would have gotten lost !
But i think driving 47min was pretty worth it to see this venue. It had this ranch feel to it, very natural and earthy. But it was unfortunate it was the typical asian catering service. Which did not do the venue any srvice, it totally killed the atmosphere for me. I was expecting Western food when i got there, but i saw Asian waiters and i just though, dear me. I only liked the entree, it was a battered prawn and some seeweed with sesame seeds. The rest of the food was cold and not appetising.
I'm glad my sisters had fun, there wasnt enough dancing though, maybe cause i left at 12. Everyone got a complimentary Chocolate with their names on it. The chocolate tasted rather nice, it was just plaion milk chocolate with a picture of the bride and groom. Tasteyy. I was eating the choccies for enegery to last me trhough the night cause the food was terrible.
On the way home, there was a smoother road to travel on, it didnt take long to get out to the freeway/motorway.

Todays Boxing day, and I'm home for the first time in my shopaholic years. This sucks. But I wouldnt be so worried about not snagging up all the deals cause they'll be on sale for awhile. So before the year ends, lets boost the economy!

Peace Out.

[I need to post up all the photos]

x

Empire state of mind

In New York, concrete jungle where dreams are made of,
There's nothing you can’t do,Now you're in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new,
the lights will inspire you,Let's hear it for New York, New York, New York

In New York,
One hand in the air for the big city,
Street lights, big dreams all looking pretty,
no place in the World that can compare,
Put your lighters in the air, everybody say yeaaahh

ME AT MY BEST AT BEING FUNNY LOL

omg duude how are we gona go on our stationary shopping spree!!
This is sooo unfly. get i getit
fly.. cause you're gona fly up into the sky to vn
get it
gwad im hilarious
Kim
ROFL
fuck you're lame
so so lame
words cant explan
explain
itd be funny if you typed explain as explane
GET IT
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAH
get it.. plane.. you're gona be on one
HAHAH
STFU
so so sos sosososos lame
its not funnny
HAHAHAHAAH
yeah i reckon
they should have a lame button as well
for lame people like you
2:31pmJessica
wasnt that bad... HAHAHHA
2:31pmKim
ROFL
your sister can tell me a funnier joke i reckon
2:32pmJessica
i bet you're laughin off your seat rightnow
2:32pmKim
hahaha
close ...
HAHAAH

shoot 22

Publishing a book .. There are so many procedures to go through! I thought it was simply handing in a manuscript to any publisher, guess not.

I don't think i have the capability to write a novel as yet, but i wouldnt mind it being a sort of notebook type of thing. It'd be kinda cool. The notebook would be called 22 because thats the day that started me, so it'd be like a note taking book for every month. But I know that it won't recieve that much recognition in the begining, I wouldn't add a year. And in the begining of every month would include the stories of a little girl experiencing happy days as well as the bad days throughout her life and her name changing with the month. Just to keep things on track (;

The pages would be full of florals, Well not entirely! Or maybe a flower representing each month.. or borders of florals, or maybe even a page of florals as a wallpaper. Id love the cover to be a simple type of notebook. a not so thick binded book, them horizonal spine ones? I like that. And of course the notebook has to be entirely made out of a durable marterial. Leather would be too pricey, but considerable if it is a total sell out - A girl can only dream right? I'll do just that! I'd love it to be in an unusual colour. powder yellow is not so unusual but it makes me smile, so ill take one of that! And 22 should be in Gold. Yes. The day I find my name published on a book is the day that I will cherish til death does me part from memory.

hp: whoa am i seeing things or has midget gone off fb to join us on msn?

I go through reoccurring phases all the time. Some days i just want to sit back and watch what everyone else has been up to instead of interacting and keeping the close contact with the world i'm watching. Is it okay for me to be like this though? Will I easily lose my friends this way? I'm starting to feel out of it with some of the girls at school. But if we were friends, we'd click no matter what right.. I'm glad that I have a best friend who would always make the effort. But there was a time when i was going through some real depressed shiz, and i had not spoken to her nor anyone else online for close to eight months.. nor did I go out for that entire year, including the two month break at the end of the year. It was a bleak year for me, but my grades weren't that bad. My conversations online wouldn't pass a meare 4 lines, thats 11 lines away from passing stage on ein tetris and i couldn't even achieve that. I'm glad that part of me is over. Though i'd rather it end off like Daul Kim. At the peak of her career and this happens, at least she'll be remebered as the best right? What will i be remebered as i leave.. the clumsy good for nothing and likes to laugh at everything? Chyeah Most likely.

Innocence use to taste sweet

Whats the one topic everyone is raving on? Sex. You hear it in the streets, in the movies, from friends, in any form of communcation really.

This topic only dawned on me after a family friend, who is in her teens questioned about sexual activites (I only wished my friend had no told me so as i would've liked to imagine her as innocent as she could in her teens so that she would not regret this one off move) and the numerous tv shows by mtv just added to it, such as; 16 and pregnant, virgin diaries, that this is really becoming a serious problem, in a negative way.

'Why rush into it' was what Oprah had asked of a teenage couple who face the everyday pressure 'to do' or 'not to do'. Why can't they wait.. Though I've never seen of this act in public, but i've heard from very reliable sources that there are teens doing it at the park. In my opnion, i don't think this is right at all, how are children going to keep their innocence sacred? You grow up, you learn, you explore - but this is all done with time.

I wish they would just take a deep breathe, slow down a step. You learn to crawl before you walk dont you? In there case, they've skipped the crawling and started running. hey don't have the foundation of what it takes to run, and what if you fall? Its scary to be faced with this reality that this gneration has become the Sex generation. Its daunting to me, and im sure to parents also. Though at times when i hear of teens have a sexual relationship with their partners, i question how they were raised, what morals did they live by, did they have any, was this just a spur of the moment? Don't get me wrong but this is not a blaming game and that i have laid blame on a saide. I don't blame parents for their children running loose, but i wish they had paid a closer eye to the situation their child is facing and noticing the enviroment your child is in. Use your gut instincts and tighten the leash when needed. If it doesnt feel right, say it, explain it.

It is a rebellious era.

FAZSM

OMGOMGOMG

I SAW FAZIL FAUD @ MC when i was heading back home. WOW He is so cute, with his blonde mohawk and his shades. sooo cool. okay now i sound like a total creep, but his a photographer that i reallllly like! His work is amazing, like how can you capture such an ordinary scene and make it seem so beautiful? With a meaning too. Extraordinary i say!

THAT SO MADE MY DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HE IS SOOOOOO CUTE AND CUTE AS CAN BEEE

I know i should've stayed in bed

My sister walks into the door with the help of my dad with a mind half awake asks; What happened? What happened> Me; Nothing sweety, you just got home, you slept in the car. now hop into bed. This is one of her cutest dorkiest moments.

New york - Eskimo Joe

Travel Destinations

America
- Hawaii, New York, Mexico, California - laguna beaches, knotts berry farm, Nevada

Asia
- HongKong, Shanghai, Chiang Mai, Vietnam

Santa Rio, Paris, Italy,

Steam

i cant sleep.. again and its so frustrating. every time i close my eyes, i just want to open them up again. so now im occupyng myself until i feel absolutely tired then fall asleep. my skin looks so disgustng right now and thats driving me crazy too!

If I wrote a letter to you, it would say...

To Marimo,

How are you and your parents? The years almost ending soon, but it feels like yesterday that I had breakfast and then walked to school with you! Good times :)

You finish school now! YAY Are you planning to go university.. or maybe come study in Melbourne? :) haha

This year has been really busy for me, school has officially taken over my life! But alas, i was able to get a break from all the studying to go America. I had a great time there, I stayed in Las Vegas and California - the weather was really hot!! DisneyLand there is also fun haha If you ever geta chance, come to america, best place ever! But do come to Melbourne first! I misss you!!

Have a MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR


Dear THE LIL FAMILY WITH THE BIG HEART

I cannot express how thankful I am to have met you. Your family's genuity and warmth to me made me feel so comfortable during my short trip. I owe you guys so much.

Your mother's cooking was out of the world, your dad's smile is sooooo adorable and the ladies. What can I say, you guys are just the bomb!

I misss you guys soo much

P.S
COME TO MELBOURNE and ill cook you JESS'S SPECIALTIES *wink

HARRISON

You know at first i thought you were this really naughty monkey on the loose! You kept poking and prodding me at Disneyland when i was having my moodswings! Buttt, it didnt take me long to realise you are the sweetest thing created. And that you are a good boy and absolutely loveable! MISS YOU SO MUCH.

P.S Just nine more christmas's ;)


Duong my lil giggle puff girl and the brothers (thats for being mean to the poor girl),

I misss you guys so much, come and spend the summer aussie way next year! And you can get a taste of my breakfast making skills. Gosh that sounds exciting doesnt it?! I'm craving hamburgers as im writing this. And some chicken wings - honey soy flavoured. And some chipps Mmm

I cant imagine how the trip without you guys would be like, even if it was just for a short amount of time.

Johnny you cutie

I am so glad I have met you, even for that short amount of time which I will not forget. I never thought i would meet such a charmer in my lifetime. :) And I'm awfully sorry about that little 'incident', Im not quite good at following orders, especially when its mute!

I wish you a merry merry christmas, take care
JESSICA



Thuy&Paul

My wicked family members, but through thick and thin, as much as you'd lurve to torture me, I LOVE YOU GUYS.

Paul you know i-i-i had so much fun hanging with you (i had to try and fit that part of the lyric in).

Have a merry merry Christmas and a happy new year.


HUY!!

Do you like our picture in Burberry? Hahha and i do 'miss you tons.' I had so much fun in Vegas but spending it family members just makes it that more awesome.

Misss you but wouldnt wanna be you (sorry for my lameness)

JESSJESS

ASIA

How are you more enegetic than me?? I was dying in the heat in Vegas, but you led the pack like a true leader which was great. I couldnt imagine a better tour guide. Love Love you, cant wait to see you soon!

Cus
What a year this has been hey? We literally spent half a year together, how bizarre, but i like. Spending time with you and linda overseas was so much fun. I honestly did not expect to have so much fun, initally i just thought that i will be shopping in another country, thats it. I guess not!

I hope we could spend our days and create more memories overseas, or here would be cool too.

BUNNY.

Oh fatcheeks, my number one table tennis player in my heart, i love you so much. How cheesy was that haha The trip to America was sure unforgettable. But Harrison's still mine okay?

Love you

Talah

Tanning in the driveway

Reading in a cubicle

Lying on the floor boards

Pumping the music real loud so everyone could pay attention to me

Practising Japanese whenever i see my reflection

Swagger

Big money

Learn sign language

The cracked grey thing

I sit on my driveway counting cars whilst listening to music.



I wanted to get out of the house because i wanted to erase what the dad said. I know the furtherest i could go is to the end of my driveway, but i think i could have gone further as no one was even looking for me.



A group of bike cyclers pass me exhanging weirded out looks.



The pavement was warm.



I listened to my ipod with songs so old it could age you just by listening to it.



I saw two planes flying towards sydney maybe? Or better yet, over the seas and beyond and safely landing (no jinx) onto a beautiful island surrounded by cooked lobsters and pineapple juice.

Bored

He never responds, His always making the effort to talk, He stopped texting or making any... He used to be the one i thought was special.

Its not worth thinking about anyone at a time like this though right? I mean.. I only have one year to selfishly concentrate on myself and studies only right.. should've begun this year.. but it could not be helped. My will is not stronger than my force.

Changing seasons, changing moods

The crisp afternoon air outside August's home, she sits with her laptop.

With a breeze so clean and fresh her mind is put in wonder, whats happening out there? How is it that everyone's life is like watching a drama being replayed whilst hers is like a black and white film cut in the middle to show no contrast?

Despite having no major love experience as oppose to her friends who changes boys as fast as she changes her undies, August puts her envy behind as all she wants is to do well in school rather than be distracted. Facebook is more than enough.

Its just Highschool

From crayons to pencils to pens.

'School is preparation to life' as told to July by a close family member. She did not understand how at first, but thinking it through makes sense. You were pressured to write a 'proper' essay, what for? So you would be able to handle yourself in university. That was only one example.

The seventh month of the year is a chilly experience, physically. The weather is terribly cold and every morning stepping out of the house was incredibly the sloshiest aquaintence with nature. Huddling with your group of friends for warmth, or hiding from the harsh wind in the library are the memories of the seventh month.

Sleepless nights

June puts her foot in the mud. Eventually she will be able to wipe it all off to walk again. Though you may not know, this is no ordinary mud, it is the love mush mud that she walked into unexpectedly.

She took a trip to the other side of the world. With her relatives from australia and their relatives in america combined under the small cottage on the Californian drive would, you expect to be have a cultural difference clash, but rather it worked out for the better for both parties. The combination could not be parted until their departure from June. It did not take long for the group to know each other and be comfortable with one another, but those 7 days went by so fast that June was afraid to blink in case she would miss it.

The day started early, the nights ended on the next day everyday.

Nearing the time that the american relatives were leaving, june bonded quite well with one of her relative's american relative's relative. They shared a moment together. But her emotions were so numb.. she was sad they were leaving, but couldnt care less if he liked her. She was caught up in all the fun that noticing him was definately on the outlier. Yes, she got to experience what "fun" was all about.

She came home with a mind filled of what he has said to her. She then tries to analyse what and when he tried to enter her world. Alas, it was too late to change or continue anything as they reside on the opposite sides of the world. Though she wakes up early to catch him online, her conversations would end with her starting and finishing the conversation. She makes the effort to keep in contact and the answer was obvious that he no longer held an interest as he never replied to any of her messages through Facebook.

June felt alone and that no one around her would be of any assistance. However, she was lucky she became closer to a friend of 3 years through online chatting and he has helped her through this ordeal. This may seem petty or very teenagy to those with no similar experiences, but you do miss the person unconditionaly, especially when the time spent together was the most refereshin thing she has experienced in over 15 and half years of her life.

sdohteMaths

April leans on her window sill and questions, why can't life be like 1 + 1 = 2?

For life, there is no definite answer.

QV MELBOURNE

So i had a wrap from zest at QV today. the chicken sensation was sensational! it had the green sticker which meant it was safe to gobble down :) Where the drinks were located, it said "Grab and Go" and just as my friend mentioned it, we saw some guy LITERALLY just taking the drink and walking off. but we decided to give the benefit of the doubt that he had paid for it earlier..

Had a good time today, went jap tutor.. he taught us relative clauses which is hella confusing.

Purchased my maths books for next year, and i also bought this deck of cards that have melbourne restaurants on it. Pretty cool until i saw MEKONG. I just immediately know thatthis was one of them regretful purchases. OH AND I GOT SOME HIGHLIGHTERS :) oh im so cool and these pegs for only a dollar. hahah

Parents were out, so i went over to my aunts place. i pretty much ate and left. i made poor grampsy take me home! i feel bad but i couldnt take listening to the viet radio while watching the news on tv.

The pain of this commericial christmas! i have friends whom i want to give gifts to, but its unfortunate that i have no money. and this is my mums birthday. I didnt do anything special cause i was mad at her for the whole week for yelling at me. i cant help raising my voice, why cant they just understand that? They raise their voice while talking to me, so isnt it just natural that i possess that?

I have to study hard to get at least 4/6 A's from my subjs.

A: "you could see everything when you're walking"

B: "what you're blind when you drive?"

Its these dopey moments of mine that peeps remeber me as

♥

TEXT:

In 10 years time if i dont remeber you just refer yourself as the one that goes blind when your in a car.

- Chau

wise werds

you never xcease to amaze me!
KIM LE says:
HAHAHAHA
haha, im good @ making shit up
and you're good at haggling
we should go shopping together
LOL


KIM LE says:
LOL
anyways i'll let you go
before you stay on and blame it on me
or .. i blame on your for distracting me
LOL

GPS

There are many palm readers out there.

Palm readers supposedly have this 6th sense ability to be able to read a person's life. Everyday, choices are made and how people decide it will shape their lives in the future. March is unfortunate to posess the power of being indescisive, she does not decide anything on her own. She is constantly asking questions to her peers to see which choice would have the best reaction. She has even tried praying to the spiritual world of above, asking an object, asking the wind but to no prevail.

Suppose there is a map with infinite paths. Guidance from peers is key and being respectful where ever you go. The infinite paths will soon come to together to build a thick pathway to the sky, heaven. Utopia.

The Elements

This spoilt girl has quite of an attitude that she purely derived from her parents anger towards her. Her parents are blinded by this fact and firmly belives it was in gods hands that he gave birth to such a personality. And they were there to deliver the being.

February grew to be a quiet, reserved and use to failure type of girl. She grew up unable to differentiate left to right in her mother-tongue language. No one taught her, so she just assumed that left was right, and right was left.

Control

For years, this child was left unattended by whom she wants to be accompanied most by, her parents. Every weekend, she would find herself among her extended family her parents have created which made her often wished her extended family were her own. Not a day goes by without dreaming of the reality she wants. Though she gets practically everything she wants, there is a emptyness in her heart, its love. What her parents did not know that things had happened to her whilst she was with the 'extended family'.

Its cruel to see a child without his/her parents. However, she cannot be put on the same boat as those children starving, parentless, deprived of everything. The troubles that affect her are incomparable, but she does sit among the unfortunate cases.

i can do it if i put my mind to it

I will write a story base on my life but fabricated to make it fictional. this is aimed at aimless people - teens.

then i will submit it to editors.
http://www.horsham-college.vic.edu.au/staff/English/TEXTS%20(Novels,%20Films,%20Prose)/VCE/Cosi/cosi_teaching_notes.pdf

^is the sample for sending the transcript.

the book wll have a vintage cover, that old material and gold writing on the spine

it would be relatively small to be acessible in a standard handbag

pictures is a must!

Wonders Of the World -

Im scared of heights. I really am. But having been on the Flying Fox, Gigantic swing, a rollercoaster, I'm frustrated to know why I'm still afraid of it. I love feeling the adrenaline rush, sometimes i question, am i really scared.. or am i just faking it?

Its You - Ryan Cabrera
Trouble - Britney

Chapter 1 - Outside of Utopia

She sits and stares at the mouths moving, not responding but observing. Not knowing what to say, she giggles her nerves away. Easily coined as the girl who laughs at anything. She keeps things to herself, afraid of what others may say of her, she preserves a capsule of emotions she keeps buried underground.

Once upon a time she was a little princess sitting on the highest mountain, filled with abundant marterial goods. But once her bubble filled world popped, she tumbled down from utopia where she lands at the pit. She wonders when she will be able to relapse the time that fun and innocence was everyday. Will a petal-less flower sitting on the mountain ever become that once radiant, plentiful petal flower that it could be?

They say water your plants and it will grow momentarilly. Plants naturally rely on two sources, sun and water. But what do humans rely on? It's either self reliant, or depending on others.

This rare flower that has wilted to the ground on the pile of petals that had fallen throughout the years will just have to wait til the time is right until the spiritual wind blows it to the peak of the mountain which it once stood gleaming proud.

We can still be cool

You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
save you from your old ways
- The Killers

Down Memory Lane

I havent exactly been in the bestest shape since the trip and to make matters exams are creeping in. Yesterday was maybe one of those awesome days ive had; i went to a seminar that was about working and studying in the U.S, it wasnt what i had expected really. the information said was basically on the website, no wonder there werent a great number of attendances. However the day proceeded rather quickly after that. Went shopping at Basement and my cousin managed to snag a tokito dress for 25$, lucky her! we didnt realise it was 50% off the clearance price, so coming to the counter with the 50 in hand ready to pay, only half of the price showed up. We got really hungry from that shopping! so we ate at Wonton House, the interior design is rather cute. It has a traditional chinese feel to it, with the wooden stools and round tables you see in tvb dramas, but these ones have marble, maybe to make it feel superior? The food was rather tasty, though the service was typical. Dishes coming out at a relatively slow after each dish. All i wanted out of yesterday was to have max brenners, which i eventually got, right after Wonton House that is! I was so stuffed after Max, had waffles with a latte. My cousin had the same with cuppacino.

We headed home feeling so bloated! because my dad was out and my mum was at a family friend's party, I managed to get myself at Vu's house. I felt bad gate crashing his studies, i love him like a brother and like no other! Him and his family have given nothing more but love and care to me. I am in much debt to them. Their kindness, generosity and friendly smiles are really enivable. I remeber back in the days where their home was literally my second home. His mum would always make spicey food, which taught me how to eat hot hot as food, but now that i longer come ovre, that has died down a lot! They conceal my childhood.

Good memories flushed back when i was them. Never came to the realisation that i missed them so much. And plans of anh vuong getting married soon, man oh man. Im very excited for them to move into the commited lifestyle that of my parents, and i say goodluck! i offered the baby sitting job, my mum will do the cooking for their engagement party. Anh Vuong's driving skills were sorely missed. Fast and accurate, though those sharp turns made it feel like a rollercoaster in the back.

It did not end up on a good note though, memories from 'that night' regurgetated. Although we just held hands, it felt like something could've came out of. Would've been nice if had messaged me in awhile or something? At first he said he missed me and all, and would not let me go when we hugged at the airport. that time i didn't know quite sure how he felt towards me, i'm bad at knowing who likes me, unless they say it. I still remeber what he told me over the phone which i pretended as if i didn't hear. stupid boys. So i ended up watching the hills til 4.30 in the morning, only which to find myself unable to sleep afterwards due the birds chirping away. I was turning and could not sleep at all today. His not worth thinking about, but because there were stil things i wanted to say to him, it feels unfinished? But even if we did talk, i wouldnt know what to say. I think its because i havent been interested in anyone, and he came along during this trip.. i think i have this huge crush! hahah Im wondering what he is thinking of me, or if he still thinks about me.

Yehaww

I found this rather amusing, i seearched up my own blog and only 2 results showed up. Damn, im so unique ya'll

Pay Me

i got my first pay the other day, only to find out a month later it was sent! My dad didnt realise it had come til through the constant naggings. i got 370$, -100 to vn, -100 to my dad's friend who just found out he had cancer, initially -100 to my parents but my dad is thoughtful enough to let me keep it so its only -50 for mum = 120 left. well i did say to myself that i'd gve 50 to each of my sisters, but they can wait haha i buy them things when i go out without any intentions on the day anyway.

im not quite sure what i should do with the money, i still have to deduct an amount for the raffle ticket im buying to help the red cross. the poor victims, it was good that my school reacted immediately and had everyone put in money, which is what they need most. Money can be good and it can be bad. Everything is reliant on money, if you don't have enough you jsut have to wait.. but patience does have a limit! It brings out the worst in everyone, the most scariest sin, greed. (a stray cat is outside my window and just passed me, a a yellow and black coloured bird too). I'll most likely have 100 at the end of the day, though i will feel good because i know the money will not be spent on non-materalistic things. Imagine if i didnt have this extra cash, im not quite sure how to react :( Pity just doesnt cut it, its all in the action!

only a hundred, what should i spend it on. i think i deserve to spend this amount on myself, after all those hours labouring, even though its not as much as what my parents have been trhough and they dont even spend that much in a day. Some days i jsut think, i dont deserve it, ill just gvive it all to them. But doesn't hurt to be a bit selfish once in awhile now does it? :)

So many things i want, i still want a blazer, wedges, blush, more dresses and nice tops and i dont mind a pair of jeans either and some nice flats.

Boggled up

My collage filled with oh so many memories, missing my close friends

the scarf karina picked out for moi

@ the yummy gelato place

@ the station

Memories are flooding in.. I cant sleep in an instant like before, guess i really havent let go of all my troubles and worries. It's easier said then done.

Had a fun outing with my bestie on the sunday. She is the cutest, smartest and prettiest duckling. She doesnt bitch or brag where she goes, nor does she only shop for the "branded" clothing. I managed to snag quite a few shopping tips from her too haha I dont think i had so much since my trip.. I keep mentioning of it, im very repetitive but i jsut cant seem to help it. If time would slow down whilst i was there, days passed faster than i could flip through a picture book. Karina made me feel good, shes such a sweet friend, but sometimes the worst happens to her :( I'm not much of a responder.. all i can do is be there and listen.

We shopped along swanston st, then got extremely hungry so stopped at Nandos for lunch. After that i showed Karina the gelato place, we also checked out the art market. there was so many cool aussie souvineirs and stuff in general haha cool funky shaped soaps and candles with a devine scent. i got to sample chocolate truffle, that was awesome, i shall come back for that. it was especially good as it was homemade - i didnt expect myself to enjoy it as much cause i was no fan of them shaved coconut things. After that, we walked at least 2kms to the Dfo on the South Wharf. Its rather nice in there, it seemed a bit smaller, maybe because most stores aren't opened yet. The clothes were fresh mm and i found this pair of wedges that i wanted to purchase so badly! I really need a bikini for my trip to thailand soon!! one piece is most preferred. By the time wanted to walk to the station, it was freezing outside. windy too! thank god karina brought a jacket!

"Lets take off and fly"

sunshine lead me the way to the flowerbed

never had i experienced such physical labour before - assembled two tables, three chairs and two cupboards.

left at 11 to office works, returned and assembled "them". then left for bunnings, went home and an hour later returned. the life!

Adele

Should i give up or should i just keep chasing pavements

even if it leads nowhere

or would it be a waste

even if i knew my place

should i leave it there

In the Car

h-a-t-e u remix mariah
Hotel Motel
Girl i-i-i-i
Kiss me thru da phone
Sweet dreams
Knock you down
Fallin for you - Colbie Caillet
Summertime Gabe
Lovestruck V factory
passion pit the reeling
daylight matt and kim
cant shake loose neyo
if you want me to stay neyo
spotlight neyo
cameras light action pussycat dolls
beat it mj
thriller mj
who shot ya t money
you can be
loaded jeremy greene
down jay sean
obsessed mariah
beautiful soul jesse mc
money honey lady gaga
eh eh eh
baby by me 50 cent
fame
single girl evident
cant lie je'quan
down kast ft omar
evacuate the dancefloor
work kelly rowland
Right round
about a girl sugababes
take me away remix tyrese ft pitbull
dangerous akon
forver mastred drake ft kanye
baby im back rhianna
stranger chenelle
mad neyo
marching paula deanda
holla gwen stefani
ready or not cascada
faded cascada
im a big girl gaga new kids on the block
fly away kidd skilly
no other one taio cruz
i gotta feeling black eyed peas
dirty picture taio cruz
body language jesse
no way gaga
love in thsi club remix usher
do you neyo
number1 akon ft ice cube
sexy bitch
bad boy alexandra burke
what i need deepside
vroom omarion
sweetgirl
hypnotized
thats the way i like it
whatever i like
garantee
chasing pavements
rockin your thang
do you remember
one time justin beiber
3 britney
meet halfway black eyed peas
bad boy alexandra burke

Mrs. Zeger

Transamerica (2004) is one of the most exciting movies i've ever seen. And Kevin Zegers is simply devine to the audience's eyes and his going to be staring in Gossip Girl soon :) Yeehorr

My third lesson

I almost crashed the car cause i was looking down instead of ahead beyond far :( Thank god for brakes aye?

I will be petrified to find myself awake and getting ready for school on Monday. My mind is in a fuzzle, i dont know how to study, how i wish i was smart or had some goal or even potential to go far.

Zoom Zoom Zoooooom ye ye ye yeeee

Okay so i was a total mess for my sec driving lesson. firstly i totally forgot i even had a lesson this morn and i was in te most daggiest clothing ever seen on a teen. secondly.. i think i have a speeding issue. like a big one, im always ten kms/h over the limit which is so bad when commericals are advertising 'wipe off 5, save a life'. i dont find this a matter which i can laugh off, but my innocent foot is so heavy on the accelrator :(

after that, i had to rush a shower and get ready to meet my friends at the train station to go out for lunch. we ate at Dragon boat, and i have no idea how but i got lost getting there. how embaressing! i asked these two chinese peeps for directions too hahha i thought they would know cause.. they looked like they would have yumcha for lunch ya knoow.. the service was terrible, the food wasnt so great either but as i was so hungry, i devoured everything without hesitation. it was a shame no one brought a camera. i honestly could not find mine, its funny how it only appears when im with my cousins.

My holidays are quickly passing right before my eyes, and i have not studied properly for anything. i dont feel prepared for anything, mentallly. im not sure how i can be prepared physically for anything but i know academically wise, this next term will not go far. i am a hopeless wanabe nerd. Back to the books and hk dramas i go... but tomorrow will be a prodictive day. I should plan it out here.

ten: wash up , read trash magazine, copy the last two method questions to completely finito it.

eleven: study memorise my jap oral and write it on cue cards.

twelve: print off ac exams, read over notes from lect.

one: just continue with work..

Im really going to try to make this happen unless my sisters disturb my timetable then i shall become a wreck.

ASHER BOOK ♥

He replied to me and im over the moon! Estatic! LOVE ASHER BOOK. im officially a crazy obsessed fan which is a tad creepy but umm i cant help myself, his sooooo cute! and the guy who was working with me kinda looks like him.. ahhh call me mrs book ya'll

Tralala

Man to the boy, i cant belive i was afraid of getting lost going to vic uni for the acc lect! My lordy, i had an idea where it would be tho... actully not at all, just a really vague memory of where it should be. i woke up early in the morning to take a look at where it was, but when i got to the intersection there, i was about to turn right, luckily gut exinct told me to follow the girl in front, which i did and arrived safely :)

I had a realll good reading time on the train to and fro. And it was great walking in the lanes jsut observing what others are doing. i stumbled into Australia on collins! i think thats what its called.. but its jsut a mall that is on collins st, its just like any other shopping centre, nothing too special. but id like to try MACHO NACHOS at salsa!

I had the worst tandoori chicken thing ever! And .. I feel like such a tourist in the city, it didnot feel homely as it once did.

cost to the co

Yeeha

Went to Costco yday, what an expereince that was! The prodcuts werent as cheap as i thought.. though those in richmond and the metro suburbs would think it was. My happiest purchase was two books - 'History's worst Decisions and the people who made then' and a collection of Jane Austens book all in one!

I also bought a tshirt from Mavi which i kind of regret.. oh wells ill be sure to put it in good use! What else... Oooh and there was so many lollies i loved to buy! lke 1000 chupachups tat comes in a tin cylandrical box? haha That would be a dream! I wouldnt mind going there again just for lollies or when im preparing a party. :)

Listening to Nas - Hero

Lazy Mondays

I just finished reading the Sunday Age, yes a monday. How delayed haha But yday i attended a scout ceremony, where my cousin and two friends recieved a very prestigious award called 'Queens award' for scouts. The ceremony went tremendously well - even with the limited budget!
The hall was filled by three and the ceremony commenced with the Australian National anthem followed by the Vietanmese anthem. Everyone was on the toes eagre to see the recipents of the award and to hear their speeches. Well.. I was anyway. :) All their hard work just flashed by their eyes, with years and years of commitment to scouts, and to finally receieve this award would, i imagine very rewarding! I'm very proud of my cousin and my friends :) If only i had drive and dedication back then, I too could have been standing there recieving one.
The ceremony was very well thought out, I thought it would be a long and dragging one, i was so wrong! It went by so fast ~ I cant wait to join scouts once i reach 18 to be able to join Rovers. I think i finally figured the order, and it goes something like this - cubs, joeys, (one missing), venturers. Mmm i thought i was going well until that blankness!

On the Sundays Age, there were many stories that filled up a page. Stories that contain the good and bad news, humour, pictures and news from all over the world. The only thing i don't touch on is the sports sect. But heres a fact, the age was the first paper to publish the sports sect and photos in their paper. Quite a vision the creater was, 20 years in the making, and it still holds the qualities and values today. Such achievement, i too hope that i could achieve something with such legacy in my lifetime.

To end this with a cheerful note :) - I found the cutest notebooks ever!
http://telegram.net.au/
On this website, it contains one of the highest standards of cuteness for a notebook ever.

im sixteen and am stubborn as you are!

Suitcases & Travel bags

'there is much more scope for the imagination'

Two lines i was able to memorise.

'this dress is exquisite beyond my imagination

you are a man of immaculate taste'

Megan Follows plays the role of Anne Shirley in the movie 'Anne of Green Gables' which she portrayed magnificently. There was a scene where Gilbert had teased her of her auburn red hair, and she smashed a slate over his head "Did you smash it hard?" "Sadly yes" (because he had called her hair 'carrot') She immediantly ran home and tried to dye her hair raven black. The silly girl! She is a sweet little girl whom is anorphan and was mistakenly kept by Maureen and Mathew (siblings), very bright, ambitious, has an impeccable nature, her innocence is quite amusing - how she gets herself out of trouble by making up one of the most imaginative excuses ever. She holds so much charm in her character and as a person.

This is a movie that is of great literature, although it was based on the novel Anne of Green Gables by Canadian author Lucy Maud Mongomery, the script of the movie just carries on with such clarity. I find scriptwriters of my time cannot carry the message across through a dialogue. How many times have you heard that Harry Potter's book was more intense than the movie itself? The directors and actors of that time (1985) was extraordinary and cannot even be compared to one of the greatest in the modern 21st century - Julia Roberts.

I cannot express my love for this movie, it is smart, elegant, quirky, funny and oh how much i would want to purchase the film and the book. I think i would watch it over and over again without a doubt. The lines from the movie was spoken in real english, the way the words were put into a sentence just captures my full attention and eagre to listen to more.

There is a sequence to the movie, Anne of Avonlea which was later renamed to Anne of Green Gables: The sequel, then The continuation which had little success. I've just read the summary of 'The continuation; and it does not sound too great.

Prince Edward Islands was t setting of the movie located in Canada I believe.

Scenic

I really liked this scene, i'm not quite sure why... everyone was spilling secrets over a good drink of champagne. The chemistry between the teacher and her students was 'cute'.

Also the setting of the movie, that ending where the students drew her artworks of flowers, and she ran outside, that scene. I love it.

Smile for me

Mona Lisa Smile is an amazing movie with a cast that holds the most talent and potential to sustain their career for the long run in the acting industry.

Look at this mother. She's smiling. But is she happy?

Moody sunshine rain come wash me away onto the tracks where i can run back in time

I feel that i haven't achieved anything this year. The year is close to an end, i look at my calender and there is only 3 more months til the whole routine of tet and a fresh starts comes around. I'm excited for year 12 i suppose, am i scared? Hell yes!

My mood needs to be brightened up, i need a good laugh to be the jessica that i am.

Gloomy

I really cant be fucked with anything right now, my life is a total mess. I've been so unlucky this year. Hope things will change around soon please.

Gonna have an early night tonight.

My world is spinning left around

What is wrong with my life? Seriously.. I got a fine on saturday for putting my feet up, bloody connex and their men! Fuck you! I'm seriously behind in all my subjs, failing miserably at it too! and i want to go camping with my cousins, but their is an acc lect. i need to attend! What do i chose? I've paid for camp and regstred for the lect. GREAT, now i just need to chose. This shucks!!! And I'm having no luck in finding a job, i feel so helpless. Honest to god, this is driving me nuts.

Pointless to cry about.

Luck

Today is SPRING! Maybe that was the hidden message behind my mum's spring rolls today. ha-ha. I scored my first job interview! And it commences on friday.. im so nervous. What do i say? how do i act appropraitely!? Gah The stresss. I doubt ill be able to get the job .. :( i dont mind working hard for money, i really cant rely on my parents income. I feel so guilty these days, maybe cause i've come to the realisation at last. That money is hard to find, especially in this economic financial crisis! Damn you Dirtyyyyy Banks. I blame banks for loaning money to others when they are obviously unable to pay back the debt. So greeedy of them, obviously their plan has backfired and put the lives and jobs of others at risk.

But if i had a cure, i wonder what would it be. Find the cure to cancer? Nah. Mmm I think finding the cure for autism would be the best! These unfortunate children were given this disability by god knows what, their lifestyles are completely different to others, they're unable to handle situations and are always reliant on others. The parents are whom i pity most. The pain of giving birth to a child you expect to be healthy, running along the park with you, play dress ups. It would be sad for you to have to care more than ever to the child's every action. These poor souls however, are very. I feel that my family is very blessed to have 5 healthy bodies.

xx

Wise Werds of ze Almighty

Tania Huynh knows there are more bigger issues around the world, so for those who pull a sook every now and then because of materials, or petty relationships, you don't deserve the sympathy, those dying children do.

Right onnn Cus!

Gee i wonder what she will say when she finds out that i took my cyberstalk to its extreme by posting up all of her wise werds here. Hrmm hahah I love you cus :)

My Lovelies

BIG THANK YOU TO MY FRIENDS AND FOES AND TEACHERS

I've been recieving so much love since the trip to America. I don't know how to repay each and every one of them back, but i hope that my sincerity gets across cause I am truely indebt to them. I love each to bits. Staying up to help me finish my work. Correcting and analysing my problems. How can I recieve so much comfortably when I feel like I'm the worst friend you could possibly have. I'm happy that I have people around me whom care. If my friends and foes ever stumble across this page, ya'll know that I may say many many stupid things that are regrettable, but that is because I dont think before I speak, which is a habit. I'm working on changing my bad ways.

This is motivation for me, I shall repay each and every one by, firstly get a remarkable grade on my subjects, have a successful career. I wish every one of them the best of luck on this bitchy drama road that everyone has to take part in.

Lomography

Sugar daddy,where thou art you?





I WANT/NEED THIS DIANA MINI LOMOGRAPHY CAMERA SO MUCH! ID EVEN SACRIFICE A TICKET INTERSTARE I HAD TOO IF IT MEANT THAT ID BE ABLE TO GET THIS. OH EM GEE I WANT THIS SO BAD!





http://microsites.lomography.com/dianamini/about

I'm just oging to shut my door, wrap my blanket around me, sign off facebook, anti socialise myself THEN start bawling my eyes until sugar daddy gets me one.

Never been Kissed

I'd watch this over and over again.

The movie 'Never Been Kissed' starring Drew Barrymore is the cutest thing out. Are american teens that cruel to others, throwing dog food onto their outfit? Can it get any worse?

Drew Barrymore is an amazing actress, she can jsut morph into any role which i find fascinating. and oh em gee ~ Jessica Alba was also in the movie as one of the supporting actresses. She was such a noob back then, she had a typical popular white girl look and 'talk'. It was pretty hilarious.

This is a cute story of a news reporter in search of a cover story. Her boss puts her up to an assignment where she had to go back to highschool at the age of 25 to mingle with the students and their reasons for their actions.

Never been kissed

Over it, Moving on after 5 long dreadful weeks :)

okok I'm over the whole 'i-miss-the-americans-and-want-to-go-back-there-so-much-and-cant-wait-til-they-come'. Wasted a good 5 weeks doing that. Gee time flies when you're missing people! hahah
Having that written down helped me to release these emotions as i have no one to tell who would actually listen to my problems, such a sad world i live in :(

New outing goal: NGV INTERNATIONAL. Its an Art gallery situated in the heart of melbourne, well not really, but sounded good ha. LOL Well.. its on st.kilda road and i really want to see the photography artwerqs of others. I'm intending to go by myself to prove my independance and not only that, but to find some peacefulness in myself. My plans for that day are to finish a novel by a park or something like that with a mochachinoo :)

I'm smiling now.

Online chat anyone?

You're online, I'm online.

Annoyed

Yalll pathetic.

Why can't people just talk?

inBLOG

okok, i've had a change of mind and heart as to what i would want to be. i am going to aim high. my future goal now is to be an accountant. that is what i want. As the pay would allow me to travel and explore every inch of a country to the luxurious joy to country traditional style. i want to live my life independantly and not rely on others. ive already found a travel companion, so no need for a boy to keep me safe. :) i like the way ths is going. five years from now i want to look back sayinghow proud i am of what i've achieved. and in these five years, i shall prove to you fools i am hardworking. not lazy bummer. i tink im about sick of evreything. i am going to study people.

Dorian Gray

Must watch. must research on. MUST.

Personality quiz on facebook

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

My cousin

~ has so many untold stories, of course certain people dont know of them beacuse they are too self absorbed with their own lives and actually think i give a shit about their pity stories :)

She sure knows what to say and how to get it across to people's minds. I wish i was able to express my feelings like that.

Her many advices:

Jessica Huynh
nicely put cus
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Tania Huynh
hahah ty ty. learn cus, dont work with selfish people, all they do is waste your time, anger you and push you to your limits. Bottom line is, there is onyl so much you can give :)

Staring out and beyond

I want out. So tiring here.

An overview

Has anyone ever heard of Sky High Mt. Dandenong? It seems amazing, you can overlook Melbourne and there are other attractions at the site. Such as a garden maze, wish-come-true-tree, igors chair...etc. oh and i forgot to mention that it won an award for the best view in 2008. Definately must see place in melbourne.

http://www.skyhighmtdandenong.com.au/index.asp

Ah

Just watched an amazing film, the filmtography and visual effects are just breath taking. This makes me go Ah woo WOW LAUGHS SCARED relieved ahh

The Spiderwick Chronicles is a must see! I cant mphasize or stress enough how awesome this movie is.

101 TO DO

I want to go to a footy match!

Open Day

Here we have three ladies who had the most amazing trip together - Magic twinkled upon us, we formed such a close bond there :)


Under the Era Cafeteria sits a young ambitious future teacher eating her eggs benedict whilst her friend gobbles down his grilled chicken humbagah

The VU seminar on Bachelor of Edu was very interesting! I finally have a goal to work for, study hard, get an enter of at least 90 to get the 1k. But its sad that my dad wont support my choice, his like being a teacher will give you no future, be in the office - be an accountant, you'll earn more there. I wanted to bawl in the car. In the morning my mum gave me a lecture on sstudying, i think that was my motivation. Some words from my mum. I think i found my strength, i jsut need the support of my parents and i would achieve anything. I sholdnt have mentioned my dream of becoming a teacher in the car. Now im so depressed. I was pumped about my future until the car ride home. I know i wont get the proud asian score, and i know that i havent tried either. But its hard to find motivation...

And it was really funny today, two lost kids not knowing anything in the big city. We were extremely lucky though, we found the bus that took us to vic uni just as we got off the train. Also when we were just leaving VU, the bus came to take us back to Foots stattion. Then when we went home from the city, the train arrived just as we got down the escalators. And i didnt even look at the timetable. For heaven's sakes, we are so luckyy.

Stopped by at my cousin's scout hall for a bit as i didnt want to come home early. Played soccer with the kids and learnt how to tie a HITCH knot! Ya, im so flyy.

More to the List

Does anyone remember this film?

Red Cliff, Tracing Shadow, Face/Off (1997), Drag me to hell, Case 39, Coraline, Fame, Dance Flick, Cheri, Saigon love story

New York, I Love You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I2ZmXaO9O6A

I wonder if this will screen in Melbourne Hmm, if anyone knows, please tell! And boy, New York next year for sure! America 2010 awaits meee :)

Richie Rich

Macaulay Culkin may be one of history's greatest child actors ever. Home alone was my absolute favourite and Richie Rich. I never realised that he has aged so much now. His almost in his thirtees - good lordy! I havent seen My Girl yet, which i will get to soon enough. i love free dvd rentals :)

Cheappie Tuesday

THE TIME TRAVELLER's WIFE sounds soo interesting. Definately going to the theatres to catc this movie! Oh and The ugly Truth. Waah cant wait to hit it up on cheapppie tuesday :)

Part two

A sudden surprise awakes the house. In hops 7 killarooos - 13 hours from Aussieland along with the mascot, STAMBAM. As we've all heard the story of where Stam's name was derived from, i'll jsut remention to those who have forgotten. David wanted to name it Steven, Linda wanted Sam - in commemoration of Sam the Koala and also because she didn't know its gender LOL. So the two names were combined, hence Stam.

Take me flying once more ...

I feel as though my vacation mood has finally rubbed off and I'm back to my old habits :(

Another conversation with a dear friend of mine who is always encouraging ad helping me to study, Chau - he may be a tad stingy but its all swell with him. A lazy boy that changed his life in year 11 to an A+ grader.

jess says:
my vacation mood is rbbbing off bro
i think im gona go back to my old habits soon
i dont sleep at 9 anymore
chau says:
LOL
does that mean your good and happy mood will wear off as well?
jess says:
MOST LIKELY?
LOL
If nothing amuses mee
I think so
OMGG
happy thoughts happy thoughts jsut think of happ thougts LOLOL
chau says:
LOL
someone should fedex you back to america

I agreee!

Popcorn and Mint Choc tops and Rasberry flavoured Slurpees

There are a few movies i would pay to see at the cinemas instead of watching them illegally in the comfort of my own home.

Worth my money: My sister's keeper, Public enemies, Orphan and Shinjuku Incident

Obama State

Our lovely sleeping arrangement on the last night

@ Uniersal Studios

@ Disneland waiting for tinkerbell - the firewerqs

@ Universal Studios

Oh how i would love to travel again, i recently got back from America and what can i say, that country is FANTABULOUS. I'd like to thank my parents for even considering! This trip just came at the right time, i reallly needed to get out and do something fun for myself - not worrying about other people's problems -teenage lovelife and all that teenage hormones from friends. As much as i'd want to be there for them, theres only so much you can help or listen.

Meeting new people was a tad frightening to me. Not to mention having to spend two weeks with them in one roof. Boy oh boy! I don't go out out much or meet anyone new besides this borderline my mum drew. So i wasn't quite sure how to associate with the "americans" or anyone at that matter. Do i shake hands? kiss on the cheek or is that too friendly? or Hug? I must admit, i was quite reserved and stuck to my cousin's side like the filling of an oreo. But as time grew, we all bonded with each other really well. Disneyland may be the answer for that - seat organiser "how many?" the crew "13" seat organiser "sorry?" the crew "one three" :)

And the night the boys tried to scare me by tapping on the window, they shard themselves instead. mwahaha I knew it was them. And omgsh (inside joke) lock it lock it NIPPLE CRIPLE* hahah. The story behind this was, after they were caught out, they tried to get in from the garage doorway. And my cousin was lipsing to me "LOCK IT LOCK IT" and she made that starting the car with the keys movement and i mistook that for nipple cripple. So the poor kid had a taste of a nipple cripple from the aussie. oh how i hate misunderstandings! hahah

I really want to jot these memories down because this is something i dont ever want to forget even when im affiliated with dementia.

It was sad seeing them leave back to Texas. So much laughter and joy turned to tears and regretulness that they weren't able to stay longer. But everyone will be together again soon which is a relief :)

I was such a gloomy kid, always angry and depressed over nothing and always wishing my life was somewhere else - teenage hormones. In those two weeks, i dont think i've laughed so much and so hard in so many years. My smiles in the photos were real, not forced. I think this trip changed me into a better person. The people i were with are so sweet and genuine which was the atmosphere that i needed to be in. At home its just yelling, and at school, it's just either dull or very bitchy.

The new people I've met are truely a special group. One roof, twenty-two people, breakfast chef, the player, sibling of the charmer whom we cannot forget is the cousin of the self proclaimed player with a ball of giggles as a sister and the added lame humour he calls brother and the lovely ladies of the house - Miss Wise Werds who claims that its all from bsing "101" and ze Beauty Queen who met her match Beauty King was just part of fate, but what the two ladies love most are their BOBAs (pun). From the bottom of my heart, I'd like to specially thank the parents of the ladies for letting me stay and eat at your place. It must've been hard caring for a feed of piglets coming back from disneyland, universal studios and shopping. Thank you. Knock it

And now to the people whom I've known as long as i could remember. Ya'll know who you are and stand in my eyes. I love you. I cant say thankyou enough to express how i grateful and generous you all are. The auntys, the unks, cousins, you guys have a special place in my heart. The trip was amazing dont you agree? What made this such a unique and different experience from any other trip to me was - hanging with a large group of people in my age range and from that i benefited - i felt happy.

Everyone was like family from the beginning to the ending of the day. The welcoming, the warmth just melts you inside like a hot chocolate on a Summer's morning in Melbourne.